Saturday, 15 March 2008

Fluke xxx




Just after my lodger had left i got a puppy he was the cutest and shyest out of the litter and i decided to name him fluke. I bought him when my mum went away for a few weeks and we got very close. Sadly my mum gave my best friend away and i miss him and think about him everyday. A good friend once told me if you love something, let it go, goes back to you, its yours, if it doesnt, it never was. Now all i have left are good memories because at the end of the day life goes on.





New Lodger?




Here comes this guy from Romania and i hated the fact we got a new lodger because i didnt get along with the other ones we had! I can honestly say this guy changed my life in good ways, and in bad! Who do you know that has a barbeque in the winter at night time? EVERY NIGHT!!! This guy was on some next planet but we had some good fun when he was living here! Every night we would steal loads of wood from skips and have bonfires on the back garden and just be out there til 6 in the morning listening to romanian music, russian and gypsey music such as bitza, b.u.g mafia, cheloo and salam! It was good at the time trust me! I learnt a lot from this guy and we are still good friends from today, sadly my mum threw him out because he wasnt paying rent up to date and also she was scared he would burn the house down haha! Good times!




Monday, 31 December 2007

hERstory summed up

I was born on the 30th November 1987. Both of my parents are French but i was born here in London. I lived in a flat in Wembley until i was 4 and then moved around the corner to a house. My dad was very strict and believed in discipline, he thought by doing things his way it would make me learn from my mistakes, but instead it made me retaliate. When i was 12 years old i always used to have to go to bed earlier than my brother, i would always get woken up the the sound of him mc'ing in his room. Now i had nobody to look up to at that age and he was the closest around a bit like a role model so i thought i would try it out. I started writing my own lyrics and they sounded appalling, from then on every day i write at least 3 tracks. My dad found them, read the content then ripped them all up, that afternoon i had my head in the wheely bin trying to get them all out so i could sellotape them back together. I used to write about things i couldnt relate to but certain events in my life made me stop and think to myself you know what im going to broadcast my life and i dont a shit what people think or have to say about it im not going to keep silent like a dog without a bark. I was in and out of studios when i was 13 paying ridiculous prices for studio time, eventually i had no more left and so i gave up and stopped writing for a while. I was failing all my subjects at school and on the verge of being kicked out having being suspended 8 times. When i got to 16 i started smoking half an ounce of skunk a day, i failed most of my GCSE's and dropped out of college. I was a was a nobody. I had nothing going for me. And my mum just asked my dad for a divorce. I used to listen to a hip hop radio station called itch fm and thats how i started getting my name out. There was an advert for a mc rap battle (lyric pad) at the Oh! bar in camden and this was being held every 1st Thursday of the month so i thought to myself im going to go and try it out see what happens. 1st April 2004 i had my fake ID and i was signing my name down at the door to battle, at the time i went by the name of Debz. Battled started at 11 and funny enough the first guy i battled was a good friend of mine at the time! So anyway i had the whole crowd backing me the whole way to the end and eventually i got knocked off in the finals by an mc called Ill one. I kept comming back every month until i was introduced to The Jump Off (www.jumpoff.tv). My first battle at the jump off was at The Roots concert at Brixton Academy and there was around 6000 people there i gave off a couple of good punch lines but then was knocked off by Professor green. After that battle i continued to battle for the jump off and was winning money. I got to battle at Londons Earls Court, Cirque in leicester square, Missions in Bedford and the main jump off arena in Mean Fiddler. I also got to battle at The Streets concert in Essex and battled Professor Green in the finals. After battling for jump off i was dealing with several problems, a two year violent relationship which resulted in me having an eating disorder, battling anorexia and severe depression. I stopped making music and didnt do anything with my life. My mum thew me out of the house and i lived with my violent partner in a small boxed room for 6 months. After 6 months i went to college and started a Secretary course which i later passed. In febuary 2007 i put an end to the relationship after my life being threatened on several occasions. I moved back in with my mum. We just got a new lodger and here is where my adventures started....